Hey. I wish we were friends…like real ones. Not “friends” where we look at each other awkwardly and half-smile. I hate those kind of friends.But i mean i get why we aren’t. You can’t exactly be friends with a girl that you kissed and started talking to right after her and her boyfriend(your bestfriend) broke up then stopped talking to him cause of that then still tried to get with her then finally gave up then started becoming close to him again….wow. I get that you don’t want to mess anything up. I should have chosen you. Now, that i regret it, it’s way too late. We could never be together now. We would have been so perfect but i turned you down. I rejected you; I chose him. In another life, i would be your girl. I would have made you stay…I’m sorry, i’ve always like you, please know that. I wish nothing but happiness for you, because you deserve it. I heard you were an iffy boyfriend, but you were good to me(:..well we never officially went out but still. I hope to find someone like you one day; someone who really likes me; someone who will treat me right and share things with. Please, please don’t forget me. I hope you remember me as the girl. The one who along the way of accidentally breaking her heart, you broke yours too/ <3

Well, here goes another letter you’ll never read. Anyway i just want to let you go, but at the same time, you’re all i know. You are the guy who i shared most with and i think im still holding on because i don’t want to feel like everything we gave eachother and all the thinks we went through was all a waste or not even worth it. I have to blame myself for a bit because i let our relationship get bad. I never really told you what was bad or what was okay. I kinda just let you do whatever the fuck you wanted and now that’s exactly what you’re doing. So, i’m sorry for that. also i’m sorry for cheating on you and lying to you. i’m kind of a hypocrite at times. because i tell you that i hate something you do, yet i do it later on. maybe it’s because i want you to feel what i feel but that’s not an excuse. i know that. so forgive me for being a bitch at times and being physco as you say. i understand that your just a boy. i understand that you get jealous. i understand that you have hormones. i understand that you’re a big flirt. i understand that you like being mister popular-not-tied-down guy. but when i find someone who treats me better, understand why i left. thats all i have to say.